Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger.
I’m pretty happy for a kid that doesn’t have a job, is stuck in the middle of nowhere, and has been deserted by most of her friends. In the beginning, I could barely cope. Terrible ideas ran through my head at all times, and the terrible truth of it all has made a home in my eyes. There’s no point in asking what I’ve been up to recently, because the dark circles that have formed under my eyes are a dead giveaway.
The transition has been hard. I felt that this was just a tragic detour. Thought that I’d get back to drinkin’ my time and money away with my friends once I managed to get back on my feet. Now I realize that the present isn’t the detour, but the past was. All of these events needed to happen so that I could move on to something bigger and better than I could ever imagine. I was just too short-sighted to see it.
The time has come for me to throw back my shoulders, step up to the plate, and kiss my past good-bye. I can never have any of it back ever again. I honestly believe that things are going to be much better this way. If this didn’t happen, I’d be stuck in a vain, empty life following my friends’ ideas and dreams, yet never fulfilling my own. I’ve been given the chance to quite literally start my adult life all over again. The possiblities and the opportunities are endless. They’re all waiting for me the way blossoms wait for the spring.
Get up. Get out. Run on, girl. Run on.
